Friday, December 18, 2015

Top 10 of 2015: Part One

As 2015 comes to a close, it's hard not to look back at all the big moments. From television, to movies, to the internet, there have been plenty of memorable things that happened this year. I will be counting down my personal top 10 favourite things of 2015!

Let's get this party started shall we?

10. The Rise of the Netflix Original Series


Netflix has really upped their original programming game. Between new seasons of House of Cards, Orange is the New Black, and Hemlock Grove, they pretty much had 2015 on lock... and then they introduced some new ones. Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt was the funniest thing to happen in television this past spring. I will never be able to say Pinot Noir without busting a gut ever again. There were so many shows to love: Grace & Frankie, Daredevil, Jessica Jones, Narcos, Sense8 (none of these I have watched though, this is just what I hear from my close friends) and of course, Wet Hot American Summer (this one I did watch multiple times).

But the breakout show for me this year is hands down Master of None. I`ve always loved Aziz. Since first discovering my love for him on Parks & Rec, to watching all of his stand-up specials on Netflix, I've always loved his particular brand of comedy and insight. I'm still waiting to read his book, Modern Romance. Not important though. Anyway, I binged this show in one weekend and he hits the nail on the head for so many situations. From dating in 2015, to the comparison of your life to your peers, to friendship dynamics, he covers exactly what it's like as a 25-35 year old in this day and age. And it's funny as hell. Also, he used his REAL PARENTS. To be honest they stole the show. As did Denise. I highly recommend it.


9. Serial


This podcast took the world by storm in late 2014. And after MONTHS of waiting, we were finally blessed with season two last week. This season, Sarah Koenig explores the Bowe Bergdahl case and there's nothing like a little military mystery. Have you been listening to season two? I love her voice, I could definitely fall asleep to her reading me a bed time story. Can someone make this happen?

8. Scream Queens


If you did not watch Ryan Murphy's latest show, then you're doing life wrong. It mixes truly gruesome murder with some of the funniest characters on television right now. The Chanel's are perfect caricatures of the worst types of Sorority girls in America today.

This cast is stacked. Emma Roberts, Abigail Breslin, Nasim Pedrad Lea Michele, Niecy Nash, Oliver Hudson, Nick Jonas, Ariana Grande and the original Scream Queen, Jamie Lee Curtis. I'm so sad that it's over. It was spit out my wine funny every week, along with being dark and twisted and gory.



7. Sample Source


I love free stuff. There isn't much in this world that gets me going quite like free things. I'm poor and cheap so this shouldn't come as a surprise. I honestly cannot remember where I found out about this, but you can sign up for Sample Source and every 3 months they send you free products. FREE. Last time I got a mish mash of things such as dishwasher fluid, chocolate covered blueberries, and Breathe Right strips. Not only that, but I also go a free subscription to a magazine and I'm in love. So do yourself a favor and sign up here.

6. Whine About It


Matt Bellassai has won the hearts of twenty somethings everywhere. Every week gets continuously funnier and more relatable than the last. Plus, how envious are you that he gets paid to get drunk at his desk and rant? SIGN ME UP FOR THIS JOB!

Here is my personal favourite episode:




Honorable Mentions:

End of the tampon tax - Canadian women coast to coast finally had something to celebrate when it comes to our periods.

Dubsmash - I became a little obsessed with this app earlier this year.


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Check back next week for my top 5! 

What are your fave things from 2015? Let me know in the comments below. 

Linking up for Friday Favorites!

Wednesday, December 16, 2015

We're All A Little Weird... Or Is It Just Me?

Sometimes I do things and I can't explain why I do them. I'm definitely an odd duck but sometimes these things that I do are so outrageous or stupid that people don't believe it's happened. And then sometimes things happen to me also that I can't explain and I feel like I'm putting out an odd vibe into the universe. I've learned to embrace it. I'm weird - this is not news, this is not changing. But in the last 10 days, my life has been extra ridiculous. Today I am confessing...

Things That Have 100% Happened To Me Recently


- I ran into an ex-boyfriend at a dingy bar when I was with my whole family and took the two dollar ring on my finger and placed it on my ring finger. You know, so he knows how much I have my life together...

- I wanted to avoid someone in the mall so I picked up my cellphone and pretended to be on it and then it rang... really loud.. and it's the Jurassic Park theme. Because everything on my phone was set to Jurassic Park. So that was fun.


- I changed all my ringtones on my phone right after this to everything Christmas related. I changed my alarm clock to Carol of the Bells by the Trans-Siberian Orchestra. And scared myself awake the next morning. As in I fell out of my bed and scared the crap out of my dog. I then changed it back to Jurassic Park.

- I've recently taken to replacing song lyrics with my dog's name. So this morning as she was doing her business outside I was full on singing to the tune of Star Wars "Lu-naaaa -aaaaa Lu-na Lu-naaaa-aaa. Lu-na Lu-naaa-aaa. Lu-na Lu-naaaa." As we came around the side of the building there was someone standing there smirking. So that happened. I didn't think anyone else would be out at 6 am....


- I tried to do an interpretive dance to Elastic Heart by Sia with my dog and she got really scared and ran behind the recliner. Apparently I'm a really bad dancer?

- I got pretty tipsy on Friday night and decided that 10 pm was a great time to take Luna for a walk. By myself. In the dark. Through a developing suburb. Where no one lives. I thought I was going to be murdered and burst into tears when I realized I was 2 blocks from home and might end up a statistic. Her growling didn't help my situation. So like from now on... no more drunk night walks.


- I burst into tears when I watched the new Fantastic Beasts trailer and then promptly watched it 6 more times. I was crying because I am not, in fact, a witch and never will be.

- I wanted to stalk someone on Instagram but got worried my fat thumbs would give me away. So I created an Instagram account for the sole purpose of stalking and not worrying about accidentally liking anything. I log into it far more than is healthy.



- I planned out an elaborate Love, Actually confession and played it in my mind and then drank enough wine to convince myself to do it and then fell asleep on top of the construction paper in my room. I woke up and realized the universe was looking out for me for once. #dodgedthatbullet #whatarefeelings?





Linking up for Humpday Confessions!

Wednesday, December 9, 2015

Luna Confessions

I confess...

...I talk to my dog more than I talk to other humans. Not only is she a really good listener, but she never judges me or gives me an alternative opinion which is nice.

...when people ask me what's new I literally only talk about my dog. I'm now that person.

...She's actually kind of stupid in the most lovable way. Case in point she stood at the window on alert for approximately 20 minutes...at her own reflection. #dingus

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...Luna ate my roommate's entire chocolate advent calendar and I have never simultaneously hated and worried about someone so much in my life. Until I knew she was fine and had cost me $300 dollars at the vet and then I just straight up resented her for two full days.

...I was very offended when the vet said that giving her the antibiotics for her chocolate fest was a two person job, and I said oh well it's just me, and he gave me a look. DUDE, I AM A GROWN WOMAN WHO CAN HAVE A DOG AND NOT A MAN. End rant.

...I know I saved her life when I rescued her, but I never knew how much this dog would change mine. In the last 3 months she has changed my life completely and I need her as much, if not more, than she needs me. I didn't know this kind of love for another living thing was even possible.

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Linking up with Sarah!

Monday, December 7, 2015

Music Monday: Best of 2015 & A Cancer Update

I want to start today off by saying thank you to each and every person who reached out after reading Wednesday's post. I turned off the comments because I just didn't feel it necessary to have them on, and because I didn't think I could handle it. But for those who did reach out, you have no idea what it meant to me.

Since writing that post on Wednesday, we've had a bit of a setback. It turns out that the cancer has spread to my dad's brain and he had a small episode on Wednesday night that saw him at the hospital for the evening. We're now looking at Gamma Knife Radiation surgery before we can proceed with the rest of his treatment, but we're staying positive and hoping for the best. He's lost a bit of his speech from the brain bleed and swelling but he's not letting that keep him down.

I know how hard it is for my mom and even myself to repeat what's happening during this whole process, so this blog will become somewhat of an "update central" for our friends and family going forward. It's hard for me to repeat everything over and over so I apologize if I seem distant. Sometimes I just can't talk about it and I hope you all understand.

I also want to say something quick to the core few who have really been there for me the past few weeks: I truly don't know how I would get through this without you (you know who you are). Just being with me helps more than you know and you can let me know when you're sick of me - I promise I'll stop being so clingy. You're some of the most amazing people I've ever had the pleasure of knowing, and to call you my friends is an honor and an understatement. You're life savers. I'll never forget the kindness you've shown me.

When something awful happens in your life, it shows you who your true friends are. I know that you mean every "if you need anything let me know" and "I'm here for you, no matter what". You've shown me what real friendship and love is. I consider myself one of the luckiest people on this planet. I have no idea how I will ever be able to repay you, but know that I will spend the rest of my life trying to be the type of friend you have all been to me.

Before I start crying my guts out, I'll end it here. I just need you to know how special you are to me and how much I appreciate you.

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So maybe let's move on to something a little more upbeat (because I need that right now). My dear friend Brooke shared with me a playlist from NPR that I want to share with all of you. They've put together their favorite tracks from 2015. While not everything on this list is my cup of tea, the majority of it is the bomb. So thanks for bringing it to my attention B!




I hope you enjoy it. Have a great week! 

Wednesday, December 2, 2015

Three Words

I confess I never gave much thought to my parents mortality. Why would I? At 25 years old I took for granted that my family would be around forever. "My parents are invincible" I would think to myself. In my mind, I'd be well into my 40s or 50s before I gave much thought to my parents being "old".

Until one afternoon in September when I received a text that simply said "can you come home right now?" My stomach dropped. I didn't need to go home to know what I was about to hear. I've never believed in intuition as much as I do now. Because my stomach was heavy all day, as though it knew something bad was going to happen.

I fled the office and got in my car in what seemed like seconds. That drive was both incredibly long and incredibly quick. As soon as I walked in the door, one look at my parents' faces confirmed my fears. It felt like someone knocked the wind out of me.

Mom: "You know, Melissa..."

Me: "Don't. Say. It."

The three words that would change my life forever.

Dad: "I have cancer."

In one afternoon, our lives changed entirely. In one sentence, my entire future flashed before my eyes. In one moment, my heart broke.

Bad things don't happen to our family. This isn't supposed to happen. This isn't fair. Why him? These are all things I've been cycling through in my brain for the past few months. My dad is my everything. In the past few years, we've gotten closer, gotten along better - I guess that's what being an adult is. Learning to appreciate your parents. Which is why this is so unfair. I feel like I'm just getting to know him as a person and not just my dad, and now there's a chance that could get ripped away from me.

Nothing was more terrifying and anxiety ridden than those few weeks in October when we still had no answers. I don't think I've ever cried so much in my entire life. I'd cycle through being sad, being mad, being guilty... Guilty because "who am I to be so upset? I'm not the one who has cancer. Imagine how bad it must be for him. You have no right to be upset".

The first couple weeks after the diagnosis, I drank myself to sleep almost every night. Glass of wine after glass of wine. I lived in a haze; somewhere between reality and a world in my head where everything was rainbows and butterflies. Not helpful in the long run and not what my dad would want. So I got help.

I sought out a social worker at CancerCare Manitoba as soon as possible. I knew I wouldn't get through this alone. And she said to write if that's what helped. And it has taken me a long time to be ready to write about this.

Originally, we were working under the assumption that he'd have maybe a year. And all he wanted was for us to continue on with our lives as normal, and try to be as positive as possible. He said he'd fight. Which made me cry even harder.

But as the weeks wore on, doctors gave better news. A few years at least. How morbid that we consider that good news? But we practically clicked our heels.

I spend infinitely more time with my family. Whether that's in person or on the phone. Sometimes I think my parents are sick of how much I'm around but I can't help it. I feel the need to be there all the time now.

Almost instantly, my outlook on life did a 180. Marriage? I want it now. I want my dad to be there. Babies? I want them. I want my parents to be grandparents and I want to raise a family as well as my parents raised us.

So today I confess that life is bitch. She'll hit you like a cement truck head on doing 100 miles an hour. Cancer doesn't discriminate. Cancer doesn't care who you are. Cancer doesn't care about your age, or race, or family, or gender. Cancer sucks.


Fuck Cancer.