Tuesday, March 31, 2015

5 Things That Make My Inbox Happy

I used to hate getting newsletters and e-mail promotions. Younger Melissa was so dumb. I sign up for everything and anything now mostly to get coupons cause I'm poor. Newsletters are my new favorite jam. So much information in one little spot. So fetch. Here are 5 that make my inbox fuzzy and warm:

The Skimm

Ladies, let's face it: we're too busy for our own good. Sometimes, current events fly right over my head when I'm knee deep in the workday. Enter the Skimm. Not only do I get the world's top headlines straight to my inbox, but these ladies are funny. Every morning I look forward to skimming with my cup of coffee in hand.

If you're not as obsessed with Blake Lively as I am, then congratulations for having a life. But if you love her like I do, you need to be subscribed to her website Preserve. Food, style, wellness, stories, artisans, shopping... need I say more?

I like big books and I cannot lie... But for reals. This newsletter is great because everything is book related. We all know how much I love to read, and if you do too, then you'll love this twice weekly newsletter full of lists, quizzes and facts!

My wanderlust is out of control lately and this newsletter only adds fuel to the fire. With articles on food, leisure and culture there's something for every type of traveller. It even makes me want to start up new hobbies like splunking just so i can go explore the "world's coolest caves". One day...

Blogger Book Club

I may be biased but this one might be my favorite. I've never participated in a book club before and the lovely Sarah hosts a blogger one every month! I "attended" (via Google Hangout) my first meeting on Sunday and it was so much fun to chat and hear everyone's thoughts. The book club e-mails are so cute I look forward to them every month. If you want to join us sign up here!

Do you have any e-mails or newsletters that you receive weekly that I should know about? What are your favorites?

Wednesday, March 25, 2015

Don't Wake The Snake... Sssss

I confess... 

...I pee my pants laughing every single time I watch this.

... I don't know how to be an adult. Like... I'm really bad at it. And nap way too much. 

...Some days I feel like I worry about money too much, and then other days I feel I should be more worried. It's an unhappy balance.

... I really need to learn to cook a proper meal. More than once a week.

... from the bottom of my heart that I still am in awe of all the outpouring of love from you blogger ladies. It's crazy how much better you feel having dozens of women you've never met raise you up when you're down. This is why I blog. The connections I make here are beyond amazing. END MUSH. 

... I need more laughter. So I'll confess to watching this video more times than is healthy this week.

Emphasis on the ittle

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Monday, March 23, 2015

The End or The Beginning?

I have sat here writing and erasing for the past 30 minutes. What do you do when words fail you? Why can't I write what I need to say? And then I realized that the words aren't the problem. The problem is my need to be cryptic. The need to make everyhting sound more eloquent than it is. So screw it. 

I was very unhappy. I was in a relationship that wasn't fulfilling and didn't make me feel good about myself. There was no emotional support and no understanding. I wasn't getting what I needed. In turn, it caused me to not give anything back. I turned in on myself and became angry and bitter and miserable.

I didn't want another failed relationship. And I certainly didn't want to hurt anybody. But the longer I tried not to hurt someone else, the more I hurt. Adding another name to a list of ex-boyfriends didn't seem to matter as much as feeling better. So I made the decision that it needed to end. And that's what happened. 
So now I'm trying to remember what it's like to be me. I want to reconnect with myself, the way I was before I got into this relationship, and remember what it means to be happy with myself. I was very happy with who I was before, and now I'm left picking up the pieces of who I am bit by bit and piecing them back together. 
Going forward, I want to follow my own advice - advice I've given out countless times to other friends. I deserve someone who loves me as I am, not what they think I could be. I shouldn't have to change anything about myself to make someone else happy - especially physically. If you can't handle me at the worst, you don't deserve me at the best. 

I put a lot on hold for a very long time. I'm reorganizing my priorities and going to be restarting. I'm restarting a bunch of projects that I love and this blog is definitely one of them. It's hard to blog when you're trying to hide. It was really hard to think of coming here and writing about my life and how I felt when my life was a mess and I felt like garbage.

This is going to be a big transitory stage in my life. New roommate, new freedom, new perspective. I have no idea what the next few months hold but I find that for the first time in a long time I'm looking forward to the future.

Wednesday, March 18, 2015

Humpday Schlumpday

I confess... 

...I'm really fucking awful at scheduling these ahead of time. I promise I'm going to work on this. All of you ladies who still want to link up and wait for my sorry ass to finally post, you the real MVPs.

...I went to soccer for the first time in weeks yesterday and it made me sad I'd skipped so many games. But how am I expected to be physically active at 10 pm on a weeknight?! It's so unfair. If all games were at 8 I would go.

...I had a lovely coffee date with my dear friend Liz on Monday and it really made me open my eyes and see things as they were for once. It looks like some big changes are going to be coming to my life. I thank you lady for being such an amazing confidante!

...All my friends have the cutest dogs who love them and love to cuddle with them and are just adorable and I'm stuck with this grumpy gus...

 I'm really unhappy right now in general, so I feel like I need to end the confessions right now before things take a dark turn. Please link up below so I can distract myself by creeping all your posts!

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Wednesday, March 11, 2015

Humpday Confessions X (as in 10) (Le DUH)

I confess...

... 10 weeks straight of confessing makes for a lighter heart.

... thank you all for the kind words in response to Friday's post. I'm just in a weird place and it was nice to just write.

... I've been a baaaaad blogger lately but that's going to change. Expect to see about 100 comments from me in the coming days. Actually, you're gonna wish I were still a bad blogger...

... I've recently rediscovered my love of learning. It went on the backburner for a while but now I'm just grabbing anything I can get my little grubby hands on. Using my brain again is a nice feeling.

... And on that, I've decided to write the LSAT. So my life will soon be a lot of studying and not much else.

... The Bachelor was super underwhelming this season and I was really looking forward to The Bachelorette. Until they announced there were two that is. I think it's ridiculous. #TeamKaitlyn. My Canadian homie!

... I'm so excited to be a part of a blogger book club! I love that Sarah has put it together and I'm really looking forward to our "meeting". Talking books with a glass of wine while in bed? My life is soon to be complete. 

... I couldn't go to New York :(. Andrea is currently catching a flight to the one city that I would have cut off my left hand to visit. I hope to be able to accompany her next time. Being poor sucks!

Don't forget to link up your confessions! I'm about to creep y'all reaaaal hard.

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Friday, March 6, 2015

Is It Over?

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I can't pinpoint exactly when it changed; all I know is that it did. One day, things were different. You could sense it in the air; it was almost palpable. This shift, this strange feeling, it was almost imperceptible but it was there. It grew a little each day. Every conversation became just a little bit emptier. Every moment a little less meaningful. Now we're here and I don't even know where here is.

I can go days, even weeks, pretending like nothing is wrong. I've gotten really good at hiding; my mask is impenetrable. It's easier when there's two people pretending, because I'm not the only one. It's a dance. Always flitting on the edge of the truth and jumping back at the last second. Desperately grasping to something completely futile. Irrevocable damage has been done, so why is it so hard to admit defeat?

Is it a quarter life crisis? Keep pushing forward. Will the moment pass? Keep pretending it will. Will this hurt stop? Keep believing it hurts less than being alone.

Wednesday, March 4, 2015

Nuclear Meltdowns and Voctronica

I confess...

... I had the most fun I've had in MONTHS at an escape room last night. And not to brag (I'm totally bragging), but our team solved the room 3rd fastest out of 600 teams to attempt it. No big deal or anything. With a 31% success rate we were all feeling pretty proud of our teamwork skills. Also, nice to know I didn't die in the Nuclear Meltdown.

... I'm in a blogging slump. Now accepting post suggestions.

...the new Arbonne website made me all kinds of happy. So much cleaner and easier to navigate!

... I was sucked into the dress fiasco. I saw white & gold. However, unlike 95% of the population, my first instinct was to Google the science behind the whole thing instead of fighting over the colors. It actually blew my mind how some people weren't capable of doing that...

... this video is amazing. I've had this on repeat for the last week.

What are you confessing this week? Don't forget to link up below!

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