Tuesday, December 31, 2013

2013: A Year for Change

New Year's Eve. You sneaky sob. There's no way we are about to launch ourselves into 2014 already. Yet, it feels as though January was 10 years ago. It's absolutely insane how much life has changed for me in a mere 12 months. Cuh-razy. In one year I've gone from high-strung business student to a laid-back slave to my 9-5. Jokes. I'm not an actual slave to my job since I love it. But working Monday-Friday is a huge difference from working two part time jobs and going to school. I miss being able to go for breakfast at 10 am on a Tuesday. But I don't miss working weekends. I'm going way off topic here. Woof. (Buzz, your girlfriend).

The point of today's post is to reflect on the past year month by month. I'm totally stealing this from Rachel and then Erin beat me to it yesterday but whatever. It's cool. I'M NOT BITTER. (I'm not, she's my fave). So let's take a journey together through 2013 shall we?

I kicked off the year in 80s style. New Year's Eve last year was kind of a perfect night surrounded by friends. And obvs with my bestie, Andrea. 

this is what we call white girl wasted

Everything else about January was not perfect. MIMC was a huge fat joke because we sucked. But that's alright because we had a good time and met some great people and got to stay at a Fancy Hotel for free. Oh, MIMC stands for Manitoba International Marketing Competition. I was so not kidding when I said I was a high-strung business student. I haven't really talked about it here but I was balls deep into my faculty. I loved business school. I did everything I could to be involved and was a big try-hard. God this has nothing to do with January. MOVING ON. 

I went to Cuba with my (now ex) boyfriend and his family. It was actually one of the best trips ever. I fell in love with Cuba all over again (I'd been in 2009) and I would go back in a heartbeat. Seriously, how beautiful was my view?

Here's a few more Cuba pictures because I miss the ocean. 

I just want to be in the ocean again :(

K but can it get any more perfect? LOOK HOW WHITE THE SAND IS!

I quit The Children's Place after two years there. I just had enough of retail and since I was graduating in a month saw no need for a second job anymore. I really did like working there. Perhaps it was the poeple more than folding clothes and dealing with crazy parents but I really did learn a lot from working retail. I learned I will never do it again. 

I spent my 23rd birthday writing a paper that I wasn't particularly proud of but I was really passionate about the topic. City Branding: A Winnipeg Case Study. I may or may not work on it from time to time. Because it needs more work. But I hope to one day actually present my findings since it relates to my job as well. God I miss being a student. April marked my last month in my undergrad and Jesus I never thought I'd miss school so much. 

April also marked my first ever Jets game! (GO JETS GO!) I ended up going to two games in one week and GOD I LOVE HOCKEY. 

Finally, April was the month that I planned the BASA Gala at the Radisson and it was the last thing I ever did as the Executive Officer of Events and it was kind of a sad moment. That's when I realized I was truly, really, completely, done with my undergrad. 

May I started working full time. I was already working part time in my current position but May 1st marked my transition to a real adult. On salary, with benefits and vacation time and responsibility. The only thing I really have to report from May was my first real encounter with Dylan and what basically solidified my love for working with him. 

he defaced Justin and led me to believe it was someone else ALL DAY

June was a great month. June was when this little blog was born. My first posts were not my favorite but I have grown so much from then. June was also the month I received my degree and bought my first car. June was also the month where I traveled 8 hours in my new car, with two of my favorite people, to see my favorite band of all time - Fall Out Boy.

ps Sam if you read this I MISS YOU LET'S HANG OUT

 I also miss Arin. Only girl I could ever depend on in group projects.

 HEY LOOK IT'S SO PRETTY. Everyone, meet Molly, the love of my life. 

we were SO excited to see Patrick Stump. 

July just all around sucked. I'm not even going to sugar coat it and pretend like it didn't. My boyfriend and I fought a lot. Because I loved him and he didn't love me. Pretty plain and simple. The last week of July he dumped my azz and six months later, here I am, actually glad that it happened. We were so wrong for each other. We worked for awhile and I thought "yep, this is it". But then things changed, we changed, and guess what? That's okay. Really. It is. 

You know what else July taught me? I have the best dang people in my life. Mega big shout out to Lynn for that night. To all my friends. To my family (cousins), particularly Jamie. God, I just love you all. I really do. I am so so sorry for taking you all for granted sometimes because you're all my rocks and I don't know what I would do without you. Not just for getting me through heartbreak but for everything else. For the great times we have doing absolutely nothing, for growing up along with me, for teaching me and dealing with my weirdness. GOD I LOVE YOU GUYS!  Ovaries before brovaries, Uteruses before duderuses, chicks before.. well you know. 

me & Jamie 

August was about getting back to me. Ending a relationship is always about that, getting back to who you are. And enjoying being with yourself and doing everything you love. I got fun again. I started to go out with my friends again. And enjoy myself. I didn't realize how much fun I wasn't for so long. August was most definitely full of reconnecting. Folklorama, Selena Gomez concert, Goldeyes games, girls nights with lots of wine. And of course, my first foray into online dating (and just dating in general after 2 or so years).

I also threw myself into work. And I ended up working on my first set of TV Commercials heyyyyy. 

Say hi to mama and papa suggs in their tv debut

September was fun because of our soccer wind-up, my friend's show and all the time I spent with Brooklyn. I mean my friends. (No mostly Brooklyn). You see, a majority of my friends went back to school in September and since I was done I had a lot of free time and they did not (not pointing any fingers.. Andrea and Kristen). So I was lucky for the few friends I have that don't go to school. And for Courtney being on Mat Leave. 

"auntie let me go ya freak"

Being my favorite month, it's natural that my favorite things happened. I went to Fargo with my cousins and aunt and sister. We actually had the best time ever and I think it should be a yearly tradition. 

October was also when Anna and I decided to move in together this coming spring. It was the month that she graduated from University with her BSW as well so everyone say congrats! It is also Halloween which is my favorite holiday and I celebrated all month. SO yeah. BEST MONTH EVER.

I was in my very first parade so that was pretty sweet. I had also been a Brownie leader for a solid month at this point and I feel like I've finally gotten a handle on shaping the young minds of our future. JK but at least we know how to look like we know what we`re doing. We took them to The Humane Society and it was a success so that`s what I`m basing this all on. 

It was also the month that my friends threw a funeral for my lady parts which is pretty hilarious. Which in turn led me to remember I have standards and not to fall victim to loneliness. Live and learn people. November was also the kick off to Take Me To The Pilot`s Western Canadian tour and it was a pretty great night. 

my phone died before TMTTP came on so here's Halfway to Hollywood instead. whoops. 

Here we sit on the last day of December. Yes it was Christmas but you'll have to wait for my holiday recap post to see any of that. The first part of December was great. For the first time in 6 years I found myself single at the most romantic time of year and I learned that it's THE BEST. I didn't have to compromise on which Christmas movies to watch. I didn't have to split time between any family events. I got to revel in the lights and the snow and not have to drag a boy along with me against his will. Christmas shopping was cheaper. THE. BEST. I watched Love, Actually 3 times and Home Alone 2 a whopping 5 times. Who cares. No boyfriend no problem. 

poor Fallon gets snaps like this way too often

But most exciting of all? Brooklyn turned 1. ONE WHOLE YEAR OLD!! I can't believe it. She's growing up so fast :(.

So basically this year was one for change. My entire life shifted in a matter of months and I'm still learning how to live it and where to go from here. I wouldn't have it any other way. I had a moment at Kristen's Annual Friends Christmas Dinner where I was sitting among all these super cool people and I couldn't help but think I wouldn't be there if things hadn't changed. Everything happens for a reason. That's what I can take from this year. That and surround yourself with good people


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Monday, December 23, 2013

Festivus: The Airing of Grievances

We all know Seinfeld and if you don't you've clearly been living under a rock for approximately the last two decades. I'm not even going to explain Festivus. You should just know it. If you don't, consider that another disappointment.  

I would like to take this opportunity to let you all know how you have disappointed me this past year.

1. Mom: You forgot to take me out for my birthday dinner for 2 months. 

2. Dad:  You never brought me to Alabama with you. Not even once. 

3. Sarah: You don't bring me home baking. You're a baker. This seems unfair. 

4. Andrea: For taking that year off and going to Australia because now you study too much and I'm no longer in school. 

5. Anna: I was disappointed in you for judging my exploits.

6. Mom & Dad: For not letting me get a dog.  

7. Kristen: For being too busy studying. You and Andrea may as well start a "we care about school more than Melissa so we study" club. 

8. Myself: How could you read GoT spoilers before finishing the books? Now you know what happens at the Red Wedding... idiot. 

9. Brooklyn: You haven't learned to speak yet and I'm getting impatient. 

10. God: You haven't given me Adam Levine yet. 

Now where's my meatloaf?


This is my last day of work until January 2, 2014 (hollaaaa). I probably won't be very present in blogland over the holidays because I want to live in the moment and enjoy them. If I make an appearance then awesome, if not, I will see you in the new year!

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Friday, December 20, 2013

Bonnie & Clyde

Did anyone happen to catch Bonnie & Clyde last week? History, A&E, and Lifetime aired a 3 part special on the notorious criminal couple. I sat my tush on the couch last night to watch the first two parts and I was absolutely captivated. I've always had a bit of a love for those two. There's just something so intoxicating about a ride or die kind of love like that. 

I have always believed I was born in the wrong decade. Nothing would make me happier than to wake up smack dab in he middle of the public enemy era. John Dillinger anyone? No? I'm weird. I'm aware. #sorrynotsorry.

Back to Bonnie & Clyde though. While the miniseries is phenom, obviously it's not technically historically accurate. It wouldn't make for good T.V. if it stuck too close to actual events amirite? Regardless, Emile Hirsch is completely swoon worthy as Clyde Barrow. Marry me please. And is it just me or did they just have better style back then? Gimme all the men in suits over here please. 

They went out in a blaze of glory bullets at about the age I am now. An epic ending to an epic crime spree. I highly recommend you watch the miniseries. I'll be racing home after work to watch the conclusion on my pvr. 

So in sticking with the theme of epic romances, we'll transition right into the '03 Bonnie and Clyde, Hov and B. The Queen dropped a new album like a boss and I have had it on repeat for the last week at work. This video makes me wish for a love like theirs over and over and over and... well you get the point. 

Happy Friday you beauts and catch ya here on Monday!

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Thursday, December 19, 2013

Silent Night

Without hope or agenda, because it's Christmas, and at Christmas you tell the truth. To me, you are perfect. And my wasted heart will love you.

I watched Love Actually again last night. It is perfection. No movie will ever replace it in my heart. It has everything. It also allows me to pine for Bilbo Baggins and Rick Grimes all at once. What? Rick Grimes is hot. 

Oh, you mean the Bilbo part? Martin Freeman is super attractive and I don't need to justify my love for him to anyone (Andrea). 

My love for hobbitses is not the point of this post. The point of this post is that at Christmas, you tell the truth. So today, I'm going to do just that.

The truth is, I'm not sorry I sent that letter. I hope you got it. I hope you read it. I don't regret anything I said. Because in it, I told the truth. 

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Wednesday, December 18, 2013

25 Questions To Ask Yourself Before 2014 - Part Two

Yesterday I brought you Part One of this well crafted list of questions to look back on the year. So today, I present to you Part Two. 

13. How have I procrastinated?
I've been sitting on a novel idea for months and I keep putting off writing it. I have bits and pieces but I think I'm scared to get it started and make it real. 

14. In what ways can I re-structure my time?
I need to lay off the Netflix so much. And the naps. I need to make more time for reading & writing. I need to make more time to finish the things on my to-do list. I definitely need to come up with a weekly schedule and get myself organized. 

15. How have I allowed fear of failure to hold me back?
I have let myself believe that if I take a chance or a risk I will fail. I will be rejected and it will all have meant nothing. But I've learned that not taking a risk is also a failure. Not putting myself wholeheartedly into something I'm passionate about is failing myself. No more holding myself back. 2014 will be a year for doing. No more watching my own life pass me by. 

16. Where has self-doubt taken over?
This summer, after ending a serious relationship, I seriously doubted every aspect of myself. Am I not pretty enough? Am I not fun enough? Am I not smart enough? Am I unlovable? What's wrong with me? The questions went on and on and on. It took me a few weeks to get back on track and focus on the fact that I am good enough and deserve better

17. When have I felt the most alive?
When I graduated from University in June I had a new perspective. I felt my whole life in front of me and had a rush of energy. I felt like I could do anything and be anything and had my whole future to look forward to. 

18. How have I taught others to respect me?
I finally stood up for myself and cut relationships that were toxic. I deserve to be respected and treated with dignity. I finally stopped allowing certain people to cut me down every day. Last winter was really eye-opening for me. 

19. How can I improve my relationships?
I need to put in more effort. I've kind of been slacking on keeping them up and I'm going to start putting more time aside for my friendships. 

20. Have I been unfair to anyone?
I assume yes. I honestly don't know who at this point. I can't think of anyone except maybe the guy that got the letter 4 years too late... Actually yeah, that. I feel like it was really unfair of me to just do that. Pop up in a letter like that. No warning. Kind of stupid. 

21. Who do I need to forgive? 
I need to forgive him for stringing me along for so long. 

22. Where is it time to let go?
It's time to let go of the past. It's time to look forward and never look back again. 

23. What old habits would I like to release?
So badly I would like to stop biting my nails/cuticles. I know it's a small habit but honestly it drives me nuts having disgusting nails. 

24. What new habits would I like to cultivate?
I want to make a habit of not making snap judgments. I'm an overall bitchy judgmental person and I want to find one nice/good thing about someone before I judge them.

25. How can I be kind to myself?
I can stop thinking so negatively about myself. I need to try and say one nice thing about myself every day so I stop tearing myself down. I also need to be kinder to my body and start eating better. 

Reflecting on the year, it really shows me that I need to focus on loving myself more. I need to focus on being kinder to others. I need to focus on letting go of feelings of loss and regret. 


To end on a lighter note, and in keeping with the theme of looking back on 2013, I want to share what my favorite song of 2013 was! Helene is hosting this linkup and I love her and music so here it is.

The Phoenix - Fall Out Boy

I've mentioned before that I love Fall Out Boy. I've been patiently waiting four years for them to get back into the game. They're new album killed it and this song particularly struck me the moment I heard it. 

Since I was 13 I have been madly in love with this band. I can place one of their songs to every important moment in my life. The lyrics have always been on point and I know every. single. song. This year I had the opportunity to see them in concert for the first time in 10 years. A 10 year love affair and I teared up when they came on stage. I was filled with such emotion. I swear, 10 years of feelings rushed into me at once, and I could have died in that moment and not been happier.

"Time crawls on when you're waiting for the song to start, so dance alone to the beat of your heart."

Helene in Between

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